Waiting for Rachel

heavy gray skies waiting for snow later today.  

Salzburg!  I looked it up because Handke's man is walking around it, working in it.  McSweeney's posted it is where Sound of Music happens!  duh  doom scrolling a good term, no?

started reading The Willows, did some more pages last night.  Big deja vu sense of having reading it, way way back in the norton anthology days?  big sense from the book cover that a copy has long been upstairs in the alcove.  Did Nicholas years ago mention it favorably or someone else?  The Swede character in the tale I picture as Mark C just from his one year here, so perhaps I tried to read it at that period.  Do I reallyl want to read it?  those stories? Remember I trained myself to fall asleep fast at summer camp so I could not hear the weird tales of hands rising up out of the lake that the counselors regaled us with.  Why read them again now?  The prose style reminds me at once of Poe, surely Blackwood read lots of Poe, all of Poe, over and over.  

What do we want, do we think we want? Really want?  Dave said last night he felt better.  Oh, reminder that cousin Ricky wants him to contact him.  

Rachel and Justin knew all about Wendigo and other crypto creatures, I think they called them.  Cryptid. Great visit with them.  Tales about Wendy and Joe and backstories on some of their events.  Lou Ann as the pivot point in emotional terms for when they started to break up.  The Letters, the novel Joe and LA wrote together with Wendy not knowing at all.  I recall that whole thing very clearly.  Justin had to ask her not to come to the memorial.  In between Wendy and Susan, he had no choice.  Rachel gave us a beautiful box of cookies she spent all day making yesterday; home made jam too and coloring pens and a mandala coloring book.