the curious phenomenon of feeling

the extremes of states we see in the narrator, as tempetuous as any opera, any soap opera, any user of tick-tock, bantr, twitter or grindr or threads as possible.  Love as storm of impossible emotions swirling violently, like weather gifs on the nightly news.  The noble young Dane on the one hand, who woos the beloved lady, and on the other hand the sweet young lover named Edward who also woos her.  A trinity of lovers wracked with passions, wracking everyone around them.  

there must be a whole cluster of literary elements at work here under the heading of "libertinism."  'lack of restraint"   as well is the desire to pull together into a unified vision of love all that can be attributed to or derived from all loves, all loves sacred, all loves profane, desires of every sort

Bela not happy with the novel about the dula of regrets.  Just found a Spanish writer named Luz Gábas.  

87 "baroque shadow of this great beanpole in a nightshirt" 

90 "There is a great mystery at the bottom of every affection, an impenetrable secret in the heart of every passion 

we have trouble enduring life and our love is intoxicated with eternity 

David off to prepare tonight's gig at the Covered Bridge.  All excited for the coming performance. !

Milosz's book an unrelenting rhapsody of love, love loving love,  

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thursday  "Literature is the most agreeable way of ignoring life."  Pessoa 

back to a few pages of each book alternatingly   went to Speare to draw Bela's blood, realized we missed the echocardiagram yesterday 

surely Amorous Initiation was "erotica" in 1910 and a variant on erotica that lifted it from lowly erotica to sublime spiritual meditations---in today's lingo porn embraced as worship of everything, worship of flesh, of beauty, of cosmos, of self, of all  

111 for the thing called Beauty when it is outside of us is called Love when it is within us.  

99 Emotion offers us the deep mirror of dreams, and how surprised we are to recognize ourselves in the features of universal love!  

112 Drunk with pride and power, he found the first no when everything was yes, when everything around him was affirmation.